Mamihlapinatapai

So, an odd title for a blog, n'est pas. Mamihlapinatapai is a yaghan word which is undefinable in English. I found it on a cracked.com article of 10 words which English needs to take. For example we have recently started using schadenfreude.

So what is it? It describes "a look shared by two people with each wishing that the other will initiate something that they both desire but which neither one wants to start." More importantly, why would I bother to write a blog about it?

Well I think there is a word for it; Love. It's certainly my opinion of love. When I got to France I met this girl who I instantly had a crush on, but she was in a relationship. We became friends and then she split up with her boyfriend. She started going out with someone else and it felt like we were never going to get together, no matter how much I wanted it.

She has since moved to England for her course, and we've stayed in touch, but she's been giving hints that she actually wants something with me. She keeps saying it would be great for me to go there, or to Germany when she goes there, or that she could come back here.

At some point between when we met and now, I fell in love. And yet I'm still not sure what to do, and now I think she's the same. I would do anything for her, more than I would do for myself. Surely that's a description of love, or as close to what can actually be described by words.

So here's the real problem; I don't know what to do. I know what I want to do, but it's not possible right now cos we're so far apart. I know what I need to do, but it will probably drive me insane.

A link :O http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VvJNWrT2_Vc

Extreme Sleep Patterns

I have the uncanny inability to sleep properly. From the start of December to last week I was sleeping 2 or 3 hours a night and I was fine off that. I'd go to bed at 3/4am and wake up between 5 and 7 am. Now, in the space of a week I have shifted to the polar opposite, pretty much. I go to bed between 7 and 10 am and wake up between 7 and 10 pm. So my question is this; why can I not sleep properly?

There is not one constant difference between now and then. I had previously thought that I have a seasonal affective disorder, as last winter I was sleeping on average 20 hours a day, and as much as 30 hours in one go. Although that is an extreme example as I was also ill, it was a pattern for a few years. Now I got to France and couldn't sleep in the winter, but now I'm back to the general trend. WTF is wrong?

I am pretty sure that when it gets to the summer I'll sleep less again, and I just can't find out why. Any suggestions?

Again with an entirely random link, a scene from Pulp Fiction: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SLtwFugudZE

I think I'll probably watch the film this evening, it's been a while.

My First Parody - Cooking A Pizza

Right, I have finished a parody that I'm pretty happy with, although the chorus could do with a bit of work. It's called Cooking A Pizza, and it's a parody of Down With The Sickness by Disturbed. Enjoy


(Can you smell that?)
(Oh damn)
Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Kneeding dough, gonna make a pizza
Add some mozzarella
(Gonna eat it tonight)
Might add some mushrooms or bits of ham
On top of tomato sauce
(Gonna eat it tonight)

I’m gonna have it with thin crust
Or actually a thick crust
Definitely a thick crust
Oh now I will add herbs and spices
So I can give it flavour…oh yeah

Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
Pick ingredients, and get the mixture just right
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
It’s gonna taste great
Come on I’m cooking a pizza
It’s gonna taste great
Come on I’m cooking a pizza
Pizza is the meal I will be eating tonight

I love margherita, and vegetarian
Hawaiian is perfect for me.
(Gonna eat it tonight)
I’m gonna add some extra toppings
To make it even better
(Gonna eat it tonight)

I could add olives or bacon
Anchovies or garlic
Or maybe even roast duck
Oh now, I could add some extra cheese
Caerphily, Wensleydale, Red Leicester…or Brie

Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
Pick ingrédients, and get the mixture just right
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
It’s gonna taste great
Come on I’m cooking a pizza
It’s gonna taste great
Come on I’m cooking a pizza
Pizza is the meal I will be eating tonight


And when I eat
And when I eat
And when I eat
And when I EAT!!!
No mommy, not pasta again
Not pasta again
I don’t want curry
I don’t want curry, not at all
No mom not casserole Oh-oohh
Why did you have to give me these things mommy?
Don't do it! It’s hurting me Oh-oohh!
I wanna have a slice of pizza?
Why don't you,
Why don't you go and get some?
Why can't you just go and get some?
Why can't you get me a pizza?
Never stick your shit on my plate again bitch
FUCK YOU!!!
I just want pizza
Which is why i’m in the kitchen where you should be
My pizza is nearly ready mommy?
Here it comes, get ready to dine!

Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
Go get a plate, and i’ll let you have a taste
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
A margherita
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
with extra toppings
Get up, come on, I’m cooking a pizza
Now is the time to go and eat

The Original: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09LTT0xwdfw&ob=av3em

The Karaoke Version: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfW8Ab0s5Y0

So it didn't take long for me to forget to do a blog...

So, it's been a couple of days since I last posted, and I've been feeling kinda shit. I went round a friend's on Thursday and didn't really enjoy it and as such got very very drunk. I've barely left bed since then and I'm about to go out again tonight.

This is a very short post, I just felt like I should keep my blog updated. In further news I have been writing a few parodies, expect some lyrics to "My Speedos" (My Hero - Foo Fighters), "Car For Hire" (Sex On Fire - Kings Of Leon) and "Killing For The Fame" (Killing In The Name - Rage Against The Machine) soon. Any suggestions for parodies will be welcomed.

My link for tonight is this, don't know why: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GV5eksyrHQY

If I were to do something stupid, how long until it bites me on the arse?

Hello once more

It's really not been long since my last post, but I can't sleep and so I'm writing another. I've been thinking recently about my tendency to mess things up. I can't get through the day without doing something stupid, and I find it's only a matter of time until karma comes knocking.

The problem is that I don't know I'm doing something stupid, I live in the moment and don't look at the long game enough. I'll give you an example, something that probably too many people do; when I meet someone I like then I get scared to do the wrong thing, but if they like me back and give off hints as such, even if they are blatant, I miss them. I'll then realise after I've left and beat myself up about it. How do I stop this?

It's something so simple, but I seem to find myself in this situation far too often. As a result I then become too forward and scare women off, I haven't been in a relationship for nearly 2 years :S

I'm not letting it bring me down right now, I'm enjoying single life, but it would be nice to have someone more than a friend to be there for me all the time.

It's not exactly one of my favourites, but this song sums it up pretty perfectly. Apart from the gender differences obviously. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k3sdvoX7pJY&ob=av2nl

The Originally Titled Blog Number 2

So, after posting a blog yesterday, I have enjoyed a nice change in mood. After feeling down for a while I'm now happy and I can't put my finger on why. I was ill so I didn't wake up til 4pm, and I haven't done much today. A bit of surfing the net and watching the Will Smith film Hitch. However I shall not complain and I shall live in the moment.

I am now planning travel for the week off I have at the end of February, about a month from now. I shall be travelling back to Lancaster and then on to Paris, something which surely has to be done when studying French. I can't wait!!

What's that I hear? You want to know a bit more about me? Ok, carrying on with the entertainment theme I shall say that I also read a lot and watch a lot of films. I'm currently reading 'The Shining' and it is fast becoming my favourite book. I also like reading a lot of Dan Brown style books, the easy reading being a very good thing for me. I also love the Harry Potter books.

Films; As with music, sport and books I like a wide variety of films. I have a load of action, comedy, romance, horror. I particularly like foreign films, give me anything French or by Studio Ghibli and I'll definitely watch it.

Deviating from the idea of having a song at the end of every blog, here's a link to the IMDB review of Hitch: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0386588/

My first blog

Hello everyone,

As you can tell from the title this is my first blog, ever! I don't know how good at this I'll be, but hopefully I'll get a few readers.

My name is Jon. I just turned 21 and I'm currently spending a year in France as part of my studies at Lancaster University. I thought that writing a blog would be a better way to keep track of what I've been doing than failing to write a journal.

I started the second semester of the year yesterday, and so far it hasn't gone any better than the first. I'm already further behind than I should be as I've been a bit ill . Hopefully tomorrow will be a lot better and I'll get back on track, and maybe even have things to write about.

For now I'll tell you that I'm into my music in quite a big way, I'm a member of the rock society back at uni in England, although my tastes vary to a lot more genres. I'm also into sport to a similar degree, particularly football and cricket. Whilst in England over Christmas and the New Year I watched as much of the Ashes as I could, and was certainly happy with the outcome. I'll leave other things about me to a later blog.

A friend of mine finishes his blogs with a song, and I think that's a good idea. This is my favourite song at the moment: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eEn-nTkbEM0